Captain & Winter Soldier
ok, idk how easy this is to read but since everyone is discussing dates, i went to the movie to check. this is steve’s rejection from the beginning, his birthday is in the upper right corner and there’s ANOTHEr date in the lower left which I think is supposed to be a today’s date kind of thing and it looks to be June 14 1943
so there we go, steve enlists in mid 1943
How interesting that you would mention this, because I’ve recently been thinking he didn’t enlist. His serial number, which he’s heard muttering when Steve comes to rescue him, starts “32557.”
According to this fabulous WWII serial number generator, an enlisted man from New York should have a serial number starting with the numbers “12.”
A New York man with a serial number starting with “32”? Drafted. What we may be dealing with here is a Bucky who didn’t choose to go to war but was instead compelled to do so versus a Steve who is desperate to get in. I think it opens up a lot of different and interesting storylines for the two of them.
There’s been some great meta/discussion about this in the last couple days, which I think is great.
Makes you wonder if Bucky got the draft, and then, knowing how Steve felt about things, told his best buddy he was “enlisting.” Because how do you face this skinny, brave idiot who just won’t stop trying to volunteer that you wouldn’t be going if you didn’t have to?
That generator is absolutely intriguing. But the argument could be made that Bucky didn’t enlist because he wanted to stay back to take care of Steve, Brooklyn Boys for life, you know? That he was worried, should he willingly enlist and go away, that Steve would try to follow him, or that he (Steve) would get himself killed in an alley if he (Bucky) left Steve alone. There’s a lot to be said about Bucky not enlisting, but rather being drafted, and I’d like to think it’s because he knew that Steve wouldn’t be accepted, and he didn’t want to leave his best friend alone. We always were told of Bucky taking care of Steve when they were kids; going away to war meant leaving his sick, skinny best friend without someone to protect him, and someone as loyal as Bucky Barnes wouldn’t be able to do that willingly. Friendship over patriotism.
I can ABSOLUTELY buy that as Bucky’s reasons for not wanting to enlist. But I think that would compound the issue for Bucky even more. First, how do you tell Steve, who just keeps bouncing off the enlistment requirement like he can wear them down with determination and moxie alone, that you didn’t enlist, you got drafted, and wouldn’t be going to war if not for having no choice? And second, how do you tell him that you refused to volunteer because you feel he can’t take care of himself, and needs you there to protect him?
Rock, hard place, meet James Buchanan Barnes. You’re all going to be spending a lot of time together.
OMG. CELINA ARE YOU SURE YOU WANT TO OPEN THESE FLOODGATES??
LET’S TALK ABOUT BUCKY BARNES AND HIS STUPID FACE!
LET’S TALK ABOUT PRE-WAR BUCKY AND HOW HE GOT A REPUTATION IN THE NEIGHBORHOOD FOR BEING A PUNK WITH A HEART OF GOLD.
LET’S TALK ABOUT WAR BUCKY AND HOW EVERYONE SAID HE WOULD BE THE PERFECT SOLDIER IF NOT FOR HIS MOUTHING OFF.
LET’S TALK ABOUT HOWLING COMMANDO!BUCKY AND HOW HE FINALLY FOUND A GROUP OF PEOPLE THAT LOVED TO TEASE STEVE AS MUCH AS HE DID.
LET’S TALK ABOUT WINTER SOLDIER!BUCKY AND HOW HE LOCKED ALL THE EMOTIONS AND EVERYTHING THAT MADE HIM BUCKY INSIDE HIMSELF SO NO ONE COULD SEE. BECAUSE THE WINTER SOLDIER DOESN’T HAVE EMOTIONS, JUST MISSIONS.
LET’S TALK ABOUT POST WINTERSOLDIER!BUCKY AND HOW HE HAS TO RELEARN HIMSELF PIECE BY PIECE. MEMORY BY MEMORY. BUT HE LEARNS BECAUSE HE IS BUCKY FREAKING BARNES AND NOT EVEN HYDRA COULD TAKE THAT AWAY FROM HIM.
LET’S TALK ABOUT BUCKY BARNES!
*throws herself off a speeding train*
WE SPEAK THE SAME LANGUAGE. ~FLAILS~
YOU INSPIIIREEE MEEEE. SERIOUSLY. ALL THIS TALK IS JUST FUELING MY FICS. YES. IT’S FICS NOW, NOT JUST FIC. GOD DAMN IT.
TELL ME ALL YOUR HEADCANONS AND I SHALL TELL YOU NO LIES.
TALK TO ME ABOUT HOW THE ONLY TIME BUCKY EVER SHUT OFF HIS SASS TRAP WAS SO THAT HE COULD GET A JOB AND PROVIDE FOR STEVE AFTER STEVE’S MOM DIED.
TALK TO ME ABOUT HOW BUCKY INSISTED ON PAYING FOR STEVE TO GO TO ART SCHOOL, EVEN IF IT WAS ONLY FOR A YEAR.
TALK TO ME ABOUT HOW BUCKY GOT DRAFTED AND KNOWING STEVE WANTED TO JOIN THE WAR EFFORT SO BAD, KNOWING HIS BEST FRIEND WAS UNQUALIFIED, TOOK AS MUCH OF THE STING AWAY AS HE COULD BY TELLING HIM HE ENLISTED.
TALK TO ME ABOUT HOW BUCKY WAS SO AFRAID STEVE WOULD ACTUALLY BE CHOSEN. THAT EVERY TIME HE SECRETLY PRAYED STEVE WOULD BE CAUGHT FALSIFYING HIS CREDENTIALS SO THAT HE WOULD STAY HOME, BECAUSE THE ONLY THING BUCKY WANTED WAS TO KEEP STEVE SAFE.
TALK TO ME ABOUT HOW SOLDIER!BUCKY WAS CAPTURED AND NEVER GAVE ANYTHING AWAY. HOW HE WAS TORTURED AND EXPERIMENTED ON AND THE ONLY WORDS HE SPOKE WERE HIS NAME, RANK, AND IDENTIFICATION NUMBER AND THAT HE WAS STILL COGNIZANT ENOUGH TO OVERHEAR HYDRA’S PLANS AND REPORT BACK, LAUNCHING THE HOWLING COMMANDOS AND THEIR SUBSEQUENT MISSIONS TO TAKE OUT HYDRA’S WEAPONS BASES.
TALK TO ME ABOUT HOW WHEN COMMANDO!BUCKY GOT SEPARATED FROM STEVE, HE DIDN’T LOSE HIS SHIT. HE HELD HIS GROUND. AND WHEN STEVE REACHED FOR HIS HAND, HE UNDERSTOOD WHAT IT HAD LOOKED LIKE EVER TIME STEVE HAD BEEN BEATEN DOWN AND BUCKY HAD PICKED HIM UP OFF THE GROUND. AND HE WANTED SO MUCH TO FEEL STEVE’S HAND AND TO RIDE THAT TRAIN HOME, BUT HE WAS JUST TOO WEAK, AND HE HAD ALWAYS BEEN THE WEAK ONE. STEVE HAD ALWAYS KNOWN WHERE TO GO AND WHAT TO DO AND WHO HE HAD TO BE, WHO HE WANTED TO BE. AND BUCK. BUCK WAS JUST A KID FROM BROOKLYN.
TALK TO ME ABOUT THE WINTER SOLDIER. TALK TO ME ABOUT THE CONFUSION IN HIS EYES. TALK TO ME ABOUT HOW HE WANTED TO WILL THE CONFUSION AND PAIN AWAY, UNTIL THAT MOMENT JUST BEFORE THE SHOCKS STARTED WHEN HE SAW THE BLURRY IMAGE OF A MAN WITH A GRIN THAT COULD STOP TIME, AND HAD SO MANY TIMES BEFORE.
TALK TO ME ABOUT ALL THE ANGST AND ALL THE FEELINGS.
UGH. THIS IS BEAUTIFUL!!!
GIVE ME ALL THE ANGST AND FEELINGS.
GIVE ME WINTER SOLDIER BUCKY GOING BACK TO CONEY ISLAND AND CRYING FOR REASONS HE DOESN’T UNDERSTAND YET.
GIVE ME BUCKY HAVING FLASHBACKS IN THE MIDDLE OF NEW MISSIONS AND YELLING IN RUSSIAN AT ANYONE WHO COMES NEAR HIM.
GIVE ME STEVE LEARNING RUSSIAN BECAUSE HE LOVES EVERY PART OF HIS BEST FRIEND AND NEVER WANTS HIM TO FEEL ALONE AGAIN.
GIVE ME BUCKY WHO HATES HIS METAL ARM SO MUCH HE REFUSES TO WEAR IT, EXCEPT ON MISSIONS.
GIVE ME BUCKY GOING TO EVERY MONUMENT OF THE HOWLING COMMANDOS AND RUTHLESSLY SCRATCHING HIS NAME OFF OF THEM.
GIVE ME BUCKY THAT STRUGGLING TO FORGIVE HIMSELF FOR EVERYTHING THE WINTER SOLDIER HAS DONE. GIVE ME LONG TALKS WITH NATASHA ABOUT THE RED ROOM AND IF THEY CAN EVER REALLY WIPE OUT ALL THAT RED IN THEIR LEDGERS. BECAUSE EVEN WHEN YOU TRY TO WIPE SOMETHING CLEAN THERE ARE ALWAYS GOING TO BE TRACES LEFT BEHIND.
GIVE ME SAM AND BUCKY HAVING EMOTIONAL DISCUSSIONS ABOUT COMING HOME FROM WAR AND HOW THE HARDEST PART IS FINDING YOURSELF AGAIN.
GIVE ME BUCKY AT HIS MIRROR EVERY MORNING SAYING INSPIRATIONAL QUOTES TO START HIS DAY. (HE DOESN’T REALLY BELIEVE THEM BUT THEY MAKE STEVE SMILE)
GIVE ME BUCKY REMEMBERING THINGS LITTLE BY LITTLE AND NOT KNOWING IF HE’S BETTER OFF FOR IT OR WORSE.
JUST GIVE ME ALL THE POST! WINTER SOLDIER BUCKY FEELS!!
I WANT TO SEE THE TRANSITION. I WANT TO SEE WHAT BREAKFAST LOOKS LIKE IN STEVE’S APT WHEN BUCKY’S HAND GLITCHES AND HE ACCIDENTALLY SHATTERS A GLASS OF ORANGE JUICE.
I WANT TO SEE NATASHA OVERHEARING STEVE COAX MEMORIES OUT OF THE BACK OF BUCKY’S MIND WHEN THEY’RE IN THE LOCKER ROOM AFTER TRAINING AND THEY THINK NO ONE CAN HEAR THEM TALK ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL.
I WANT TO SEE BUCKY BOLT AWAKE WITH A SCREAM, SCRABBLING FOR HIS PHANTOM ARM.
I WANT TO SEE STEVE, BUCKY, AND SAM RUN.
I WANT TO SEE BUCKY CHOOSE TO STAND OR SIT, TO EAT WITHOUT BEING TOLD, TO TOUCH THE SPACE WHERE STEVE’S HAND WAS A MOMENT BEFORE AND TO STARE AT STEVE’S CHAIR WHEN IT IS EMPTY FOR THE MINUTE STEVE GETS UP TO POUR HIMSELF ANOTHER CUP OF COFFEE.
I WANT TO SEE STEVE TAKE BUCKY TO A PIANO BAR AND SEE STEVE’S FACE AS HE WATCHES THE JAZZ SMOOTH THE LINES ON BUCKY’S FACE INTO SOMETHING A LITTLE MORE THAN A SHADOW OF WHAT IT ONCE WAS.
I WANT TO SEE THE REAL DAYS OF TOMORROW. WHEN TONY SHOWS BUCKY THAT HE DID MAKE A CAR FLY. THAT HE DID DEVELOP AN ALTERNATE SOURCE OF POWER, BUT TOASTERS STILL TOAST AND PEOPLE CARRY OLD FASHIONED LIGHTERS.
I WANT TO SEE STEVE’S FACE EVERY TIME HE OPENS THE DOOR TO HIS APT. AND HOPES BUCKY IS STILL THERE.
I WANT TO SEE STEVE’S FACE THE DAY HE DOESN’T HOPE, BUT KNOWS AS SOON AS HE OPENS THE DOOR THAT BUCKY IS THERE BECAUSE HE HEARS A RECORD PLAYING AND A SPOON CLICKING AGAINST A COFFEE MUG.
BE STILL MY HEART.
DOES ANYONE ELSE GET LIKE REALLY HAPPY WHEN SOMEONE LEANS THEIR HEAD ON YOUR SHOULDER AND YOURE LIKE FUCK YEAH IVE BEEN CHOSEN AND YOU FEEL REALLY SPECIAL BUT THEN YOU HAVE TO STAY SO FUCKIBG STILL COS IF YOU MOVE THEYLL STOP LEANING ON YOU AND ITS LIKE NO COME BACK IM SORRRRYUWYY
these are broken down into parts
"I need to remember." ❋